I'm happy again! =)
Guess why?!
Can't guess? Come on, I know you know!
You know it!!
I'll give you a hint:
What do I love most in the world?!
Come on, you know the answer!
What is it?!
Come on....
Alright, I'll tell you...
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Books!!!!
And guess what I bought myself from Amazon?!!
Books!!!!
And guess what?!!
They've arrived!!
Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!! *skippity-skip* =D
Joy to the World! etc!
I got my books, don't need nothing else, lalalala......
I have had a very stressful week this week. I won't go into details, but generally, it's because of two reasons:
Usually, in the first case, I'd ask for clarifications so that I may understand better, but it seems that the more questions I ask, the more confused I get because I keep getting different answers from different sources. I'm feeling quite frustrated and very, very, confused. =(
In the second case, I normally just ignore people who deliberately misunderstand me on purpose just so they'd have a reason to fight, but in this case I can't, because I don't want to offend the *other* people who are friends of these people.
So yeah, I've been having a really hard week, and I haven't been sleeping well because of worrying about these problems and how to solve them.
I've always been a solitary, independent thinker. I'm not so independent when it comes to physical stuff, for example, traveling alone or getting official biz done, but when it comes to ideas/opinions/learning/planning...etc, *thinking* stuff, I like being solitary.
This is why I enjoy online studying so much, I'm completely in control, can choose how, when, and what I study, how long to focus on particular topics, etc.
This is also why I prefer to learn Chinese on my own rather than have a teacher teach me. And also why I stopped having piano lessons and bought books and went online to find guides that can help me learn on my own instead.
Bottom line is: I don't like people telling me what to do.
That may not be the best thing to be, but nevertheless, it is quite true. That's not to say that I don't listen to advice or guidance especially when I recognize the good in them, but giving me advice is one thing, ordering me around is another.
I'm just really upset now, I need to take a break and relax a little.
Last week my dad gave me a book for learning Chinese. It's about the history and meaning of Chinese characters, and it's really interesting. It's a great way to learn Chinese too, because you learn by associating the words and the meanings.
For example, I learned that 田 (tian) means field, because it looked like paddy fields. And (si) (I can't find the Chinese symbol for it on my Chinese program) means silk. And 累 (lei) which means tired, is a combination of these two symbols because in the olden days, the men mostly worked in the fields and the women mostly worked with silk. So putting the two symbols together meant 'everybody's work' which makes them 'tired'.
The Chinese fonts are ridiculously small, so I'll enlarge them to get a better look:
累 = 田 + (si)
There! Much better. The top part is field, and the bottom, which I don't have on my program, I don't know why, is silk. =)
There are a lot more other interesting characters, but I've only just started studying the book, so I've barely scratched the surface.
But this is so fun... I love stories! And what better way for me to learn Chinese than with stories! =)
Happy Birthday, LONE!!!
Have a wonderful birthday, and a even more wonderful year ahead filled with love, laughter, health, and wealth!!
Love you lots!!
HuGs and KisSes!!
Here's a thought:
Say you and a person you love deeply are placed in separate rooms with a button next to each of you. You know that you will both be killed unless one of you presses your button before 60 minutes pass; furthermore, the first to press the button will save the other person, but will immediately be killed. What do you think you would do?
Would you press the button and kill yourself so your loved one could live, or would you hope that your loved one will kill themselves so you can live. Do you feel that they deserve to live more than you do? Do you think that your life might be worth more than your loved one's life, that maybe you could do more to change the world than they could? Or vice versa? What would influence your decision in either killing yourself or waiting for your loved one to kill themselves.
But what if both you and your loved one are unwilling to sacrifice for the other? If no one presses the button, BOTH of you will die in 60 minutes.
This isn't about risking your life to save your loved one, like if they were drowning and you had to swim into a storm to save them, because while that would be dangerous too, there's always a chance that you would both survive. We're talking about certain death here. You *will* die if you decide to save your loved one.
So?
Do you feel that your life is unworthy and that your loved one could do better things if they stayed alive?
Or do you feel that your life is worth much more than your loved one's and you should be the one to live?
In my own case, I really do wonder. My dearest knows that I'm the one who has all the big plans and ideas to change the world and all that, but I'm too lazy to bring them all into fruition. On the other hand, my dearest is the most hardworking person you could ever meet, whatever he says he'll do, he'll do it, but he's not much of a big planner.
So if I let me live, I'll have a lot of big plans but I may not actually act on them. If I let my bf live, he'll get things done, but nothing significant may come out of them.
But then again, if my bf gave his life so that I could have my life, you can be damned sure I won't waste my life, so obviously I'd stop being lazy and start being hardworking so he wouldn't have sacrificed his life in vain. And if I gave my life for his, he'll probably do the same and start having big plans and ideas.
But then there's the other angle. Are we putting a value on our lives judging from what we can contribute to the world or judging on who we are?
I've got a temper, and I am a little bit prickly and I can be unfriendly sometimes. Dearest has got his temper too, but he's the most generous person and he loves making new friends and making people laugh.
I sometimes get over defensive and depressed easily, and I'm very self-centered, not bothering about other people's problems when I can't even take care of my own. Dearest cares about everyone else, and he's the one who always puts a smile on my face.
When I'm with him, I'm just not as big a bitch as I am when he's not around.
So I'm just thinking...
Whether or not either of us ever make big plans to make the world a better place or go through with the plans at all isn't the point...
The point is, my dearest, just by being himself, can bring smiles to people's faces, and make their day better and brighter and happier, while I would only be a bigger bitch without him...
I'll let him live. =)
I love this new skin! =)
I feel so cute and girly...like I normally am not. LOL! Ok, actually I am girly at heart, I'm just also very lazy. Too lazy to be girly.
What? It takes a lot of work! Ask those girly girls! They know!
Anyway, I know I haven't posted up any pictures for a while now, although I've promised to.... (Sorry, Rob!)
I was supposed to post up pix of my new cute little puppy, Lucky the Pomeranian, and I wanted to post up pix of my birthday and my presents too, but my birthday was weeks and weeks ago already and I still haven't gotten those pix up.
It's not my fault! Really!
Oh ok, it is a little bit my fault, but only a little!
As we have already established, I am lazy.
The other thing is, since my birthday, Lone had been borrowing my camera off and on. Mostly on, so I seldom had my camera, and when I did, I was....lazy.
Now the camera's back with me. =) Yayy!
So forget the old pix, there wasn't much to see. I'll take a whole lot of new pix and post them up for you! Ok?!
Apparently, my last blog template was giving people a lot of problems with downloading the contents and all, so I finally decided to change the layout. The thing is, it's really really not easy to find a layout that works the way I want it to, and still look the way I want it to.
I used to design my own templates, but I don't have the time to do that anymore, so I just use whatever I can find.
So anyway, I ended up switching to the new blogger layout design, which isn't all that bad once you get used to it.
It's the initial learning part that gives you the headache, but after that, it's all very easy to handle.
And it's easier still to change designs now if I want to, because I used to have to cut and paste almost everything on my sidebars from the old layout to the new, but now all I have to change is the template. =)
So....
Do you like my new puppies? =)
As you all know, I've been spending a lot of time at home; studying, working, reading, and basically just being really dull. So I decided to go to 1 Utama yesterday to treat myself a little, watch a movie, buy some stuff, eat some delicious food...
I even made a list:
Here's what I did:
Well... I managed to accomplish one task on the list at least. Here are my excuses...reasons: =P
As for Stardust, it was wonderful!!! Beautiful!! Amazing!!! Spectacular!!! Breathtaking!!! Enchanting!!!
Oh wow!
I'm a great fan of Neil Gaiman's and I would buy everything he writes without even caring what the book's about, he's that good! And he does graphic novels too, (the Sandman books are amazing!) and even screenplays adaptations. By the way, Beowulf, which is showing now in the cinemas too, is Neil Gaiman's adaptation.
So I read Stardust a couple of years ago... ok, more like maybe 3-4 years ago, and I loved it! And when I found out it was going to be made into a movie, I was thrilled. Of course, by then I had already forgotten most of the details of the book, as I am wont to do, but I remembered I loved it, and I know I love all Neil Gaiman's stuff, so obviously it would be the one thing on the list I managed to do. LOL!
Neil Gaiman worked on the movie too, which is why it's so amazing, and I so admire him. Unlike so many other authors who sell movie rights of their books away and then watch helplessly as the producers/directors/actors/whoever else mercilessly mutilate the story, Neil Gaiman gets involved in the process himself.
Is there anything the man can't do?!
I love him!!!
I think I want to marry him... *swoon*
If you haven't seen Hairspray, go out and get it now! It's great! But even if the show sucked big time, it's worth it just to see John Travolta shake his booty!
He acts as a fat dancing momma; fat suit, high heels, and all, and even in his fat suit and heels, he shakes better than Shakira! I'm serious! I'm not even exaggerating a little bit!
Anyway, Shakira doesn't know how to shake her booty, what she does is... I don't know, wiggle?
Ok, back to Travolta.
Hairspray is a musical, with all the big names attached to the cast; Michelle Pfeiffer, Christopher Walken, James Marsden, Queen Latifah, Amanda Bynes, Zac Efron... just to name a few... and there's a whole lot of dancing and singing in the show. So maybe it isn't everyone's cup of tea, but it's worth watching just for Travolta's booty shakin'! Me no tell lie!
Travolta is by far not the best singer on the show, but he certainly is the best dancer and booty shaker!
I'm not forgetting that he used to act in Saturday Night Fever and he's a great dancer by right, but in high heels and a fat suit?! R-E-S-P-E-C-T!!
And he never shook his booty like this in Saturday Night Fever! He does it better than any girl ever shook her ass!
OMG!!! I am so in awe of John Travolta! If I tried shaking my booty like he did... I can't even imagine it! People might think I was having a seizure or something!
Watch it! Watch it! Watch it!!!
| Pros: | Cons: |
| You are in control of your own time and pace. | People think that they can call on you whenever they want, because you can always work later. |
| You can work in your pjs, or even naked if you really want to. | You start to not care about how you look, coz no one is there to look at you. |
| You can take as many breaks as you like, as long as you like. | You sometimes end up going the whole day without doing anything productive. |
| You don't have to deal with difficult colleagues, bosses, classmates, etc. | You don't get to meet a lot of great people either. |
| You don't have to deal with the traffic jams, and you save a lot on petrol. | Hmm...no con here, this is all good. |
| You don't get interrupted in the middle of some important project by colleagues asking you to go for a drink. | It gets really lonely sometimes. |
| You get a lot of quality work done and sometimes you can finish two days' work in one day. | You don't know when to quit and go on a much needed break. |
Well, there's pros and cons in everything. Right now, working at home suits me, and I really enjoy my independence. It's just sometimes when the cons rear their ugly heads that I feel just a little down.
I just need to get myself some social activities and I'll be fine. I'm just trying to think what those activities should be.
I'm hesitating a little also because I have so many activities already, at home, and if I add some social activity, it may take up too much of my time that I'm not willing to give. This is what I mean about not knowing when to take a break. I'm really pushing myself to achieve as much as I can in as little time as I can when it comes to my work.
Head knows I should take a break. Heart thinks I already take too many breaks. =P
