I just realized that it's August now, and I've only read 17 books this year! OMG! And I didn't even read a single book in June and July! What is wrong with me?

I think I'm having a reader's block. I mean, I use to devour books like mad! I read 130 books in 2004, and had to make a resolution to read only 50 books last year, but I read 52. :P Heheh!

But it's August now, and I've only read 17 books?! And nothing at all in June and July? Oh my gosh...it's not for lack of trying. I'm actually in the middle of a few books now:
1. The Dark Tower Book 1 - Stephen King
2. Bronte's Story - Bronte Cullis and Steve Bibb
3. Unnatural Acts - Lucy Taylor

I'm halfway through all of them, but not a single one of them calls to me to finish them quick. It's not that they're boring either...they're all kind of interesting, but I don't get that feeling anymore, of being on the edge of my seat, wondering what's going to happen next, and staying up til six in the morning to finish the book. Is it me? Or have I just been choosing the wrong books for this phase in my life?

I really feel like digging through my pile of books this minute and finding a book that I can devour tonight itself, but....*sigh* I have to work tomorrow. In fact, I have a looooooong weekend ahead of me.

The KLCC exhibition is this weekend, and I'm on duty. So there goes the weekend! And I'm working next weekend too. So there goes that weekend too! *double sigh*

Ok, it's actually not that bad, I love my job, but it has its ups and downs. I'm just trying to keep riding the highs, and taking the lows as they come(Yes, it's the Michelle Branch & Santana song). And it's really tiring having to work week after week after week, including weekends, and sometimes late into the night. The rewards are great, but still, it's tiring!

But then again, it's my own choice. I work hard because I want to. I could slack off and nobody would say a word, except that if I do slack off, I don't get the rewards. And I want them! Badly, badly, badly.

I really do miss my slack off days though, when I was in college, and had all my time at my disposal. I use to sneakily read my books in the lecture halls and pretend I was reading the textbooks... The only time I ever did my assignments or study for my exams was at the last minute. And I did pretty well too, mind you. :P And I had more time to maintain my website too. I had a new design for it every 3 months! The only complaint I had then was that I didn't have enough to do. Now I don't have enough time to do the things I really want to do. :(

I'm working hard, and saving up, and investing so that I can become a multi-millionaire. Then I *will* be able to do whatever I want to do. :D

Alright then...*sigh* I'll go to work tomorrow with this thought in my mind. :)

I've been reading through my blogs...and I realize, what a change! In my 'voice', I mean. I used to write with a cynical tone, with more than a little sarcasm, but now I'm cheerful, almost bubbly! Ugh...

Ok, actually I like being cheerful a lot more than being depressed and cynical, but bubbly? Ugh! But then again, that's what most people describe me as...bubbly. But it's not much fun writing a blog when you're all cheerful and bubbly, coz happy people are boring. It's only when you have a lot to complain about, or gossip about, or poke fun at, that makes your blogs interesting.

Well, I could always say something about world peace... Ya right! LOL! I crack myself up. Or I could write about controversial topics. Whoa! This is something I'm *really* good at. Like abortions, life after death, evolution and the church...etc. But those would *really* be loooonnngg posts, and I'm not sure if I can be bothered. I've lost my voice for a while, literally and figuratively. Literally coz I'm sick. Figuratively, coz I can't figure out what I want to say.

I'm more of a 'reflector', than a 're-capper'. I like to reflect on things, you know, like how I felt and my opinion on what happened...etc, rather than giving re-caps on things that happen. For example, at 9am this morning, I brushed my teeth, then I put on my make up, packed my bags, and went to work. I just don't do that. The most I would do is: I went to work, and this happened, and this is how I feel about it.

This is bad for my image, talking about my voice and stuff. I'm cool. Blek!

Aww....who cares! I'll write what I want, and you can read it, or you won't. Simple. Anyway, nobody's reading my blog right now, so it's purely for my satisfaction.

I need to go! Work, responsibilities, and boss are calling! Ta!

I got sick again! Dammit!

I got well last week, right before PD, but I guess I was really pushing it at PD, and now I'm sick again. I didn't really worked as hard the last few days as I could've. I should've taken better care of myself... being out in the sun for so long, not drinking enough water, eating so much junk food, staying awake for more than 24 hours, sleeping in the cold, dry air-conditioned room...etc. It was definitely my bad. But it was sooooooooo fun! :D

It's not worth being sick though, all I needed to do was drink more water and not eat so much junk. :P I really wasted a lot of productive days at work, and I hate not being able to sing when I'm sick. And obviously, it's really no fun being sick...I can't breathe easily, I'm constantly hacking up phlegm, not sleeping comfortably... Sighz...serves me right.

But it was sooooooooo fun! We played games well into the night, Taboo, Charades, Mafia...etc. And I flew a kite for the first time! OMG, I never knew flying a kite could be so fun. LOL! (Keep all rude comments about flying kites to yourselves, people. ;P It's all innocent childish kite flying fun here.) My kite was the highest, thanks to one of my colleagues, Deric. (LOL! It's really hard to describe the fun I had flying kites without thinking of all the 'alternative' connotations of kite-flying.)

But moving on......

PD was fun, and we went home later in the evening, all of us exhausted. And I woke up with a bad sore throat the next day. :( It got better, but the flu started, then the headache... *groan* Let's not talk about it anymore. I feel much better now although I still feel like I have a stuffed head. My voice is coming out really nasal, and the pressure in my ears is uncomfortable, but other than that, I'll probably be fine in another couple of days.

So I'm sleepy now... Will update more later. Good night folks! Muuuaaahhhhh!

Sighz...so much for being motivated today. I went to work, went out for lunch, and broke out into a cold sweat. I wasn't feeling too good after that, but I guess it's part of the recovery. I ventured out too soon when I should've been at home resting. But I just really want to start work fast!

So anyway, Lone sent me home, and I though I could rest peacefully, but then my monthly cycle started. Sighz...and I had tummy cramps and was too uncomfortable to sleep well. But I'm really happy it started today, coz I thought it was coming this Sunday, when we're all going to PD. It's definitely better today. I'm glad. :P

So I spent today resting at home again, wondering if I can catch up on all the work I'm supposed to get done. But I know it'll be fine, I just really feel antsy sitting at home doing nothing all day except watch tv and playing sudoku. All the activities that you can do comfortably with your feet curled up on the sofa. :D Not that I was all that comfortable with the stomach cramps. Grrr....*PMS*

I need to get back to work! But I'm staying home tomorrow. I can't afford to get sick again just coz I'm stubborn. Sighz...

I forgot to mention yesterday that I was sick, that's why I had so much time on my hands to explore the web and find my blogs again. :P I'm feeling good today though, and I'll be going to the office in a while, but I just wanted to make it a habit to blog whenever I have the slightest amount of time. You know, instead of playing sudoku all the time...LOL!

Anyway, there's a couple of things I need to catch up on when I get to the office, coz I missed the last couple of days. But it's never too hard or too demanding of my time, this job of mine. :D I love my job.

Btw, my division is going on a trip to PD this Sunday and staying a night. I love trips with my division, everyone is so fun and always happy, it really doesn't matter where we go, it's the company that counts. And the last trip we had was to Genting Highlands, right after I came back from China, and that was a blast too! Can't wait!

No wonder I got well in record time! I don't want to miss the trip! LOL!

Yup! It's official! I'm a terrible blogger. Well, actually no...I'm really good at blogging somewhere else, but those entries are private! :P But it's probably because of the other blog, I've said everything I want to say, so there's really nothing much left for here.

But not really either, coz it's completely different things I'm talking about on that blog, not everyday things, more like comtemplative stuff that most people wouldn't share or understand here. Blek...:P

Ok, but enough of that.

What I really want to share, is that I'm very proud of myself, although a little frustrated at always being sick. I'm proud becoz I've been working hard and doing well, achieving many things, and earning loads and loads of money. Can you see the money signs in my eyes? $$$ LOL! I'm just joking. I wish I really was earning more! :P

Being sick is tough, it's not anything serious, just that I eat a lot of spicy food, so I always get some sore throat or other, and it's not easy to communicate with clients and colleagues when my voice is so scratchy. Sighz...do I really have to give up spicy food? :~( Not to mention, it's hard on my singing too.

I don't remember if I mentioned this before, but I'm now in a band that I really, really love! They're the best, always looking out for me, and really, really great musicians too! Willie and Lone are my colleagues, and that's how I got to know them, and the band. Willie's the best drummer, you should see him move! Fast as anything, and very precise! Lone's our bandleader and lead guitarist, and his musical sense is amazing! He's teaching me guitar now. Yes, I'm learning guitar, and doing very well too, thank you very much. :P

Kelvin is our rhythm guitarist, and I adore him. He takes care of me, although he tries to act like he doesn't care. :P Guan is the bassist, and Andrew is our other vocalist, Guan is really cute and funny, he's like a big teddy bear, Andrew is the funniest, and most happening! I love this band! We have so much fun jamming, and hanging out!

But oh wait, I'm supposed to act cool....

Oh yeah, the band's ok.....*drags a smoke from my cigarrette*, it's no big deal. We're all cool... Cool.....dude.... Blek! LOL! Doesn't work too well for me, does it? *Toss cigarrette away*

Bottom line is, I'm having fun, I'm doing well, I'm loving life, and I think that's cool! :D

I swear I'll try harder to blog more. But I did mention that it's only if I don't have much else to do, and I've been really busy this last couple of months. With deadlines and goals and all.

Oh, btw, Elaine's back for good! I'm so happy, but I haven't metup with her yet. Her's birthday's this Saturday so it's gonna be great seeing her and everyone again, since Shyuan is also back, but only for a while. :( At least I'll get to see her. I missed them all sooooo much!

I have somethings to do....back to work, sighz....so tata until next time! :D

I'm back, and I'm fat. Sighz... The food was too good, but more about that later. I'll write a real update on my trip when I have more time, this post is just a check-in to let you know I'm back. :D

Anyway, we reached homeland Malaysia at 6pm today(21/05), and reached home at 8pm. Then came a whole lot of things to do. Called for pizza coz we hadn't had our dinner, then got Baby home from boarding at the petshop. Went online to check my mails, had too many, chatted with a couple of friends, took a bath, went back online, went out for drinks with some friends, came back and unpacked. Whew!

Too lazy to give an actual account of everything right now, and I still have to pack for an overnight trip to Genting tomorrow with my colleagues. Unpacked, just to pack again. Sighz...but it's ok, I'm still having fun. :D

Pics will be coming soon, but some of the best pics are with my dad coz he's still in China. He stayed back for golf. :P So I'll post up the ones I have, and post up more when he gets back. It was an amazing trip!

Ok, I have to go pack and ready up for tomorrow's trip again. Good night!

Finally! I finished packing! Finally, finally, finally!

Well, almost. Just my toothbrush and my brush, and stuff like that, coz I still gotta use them in the morning. I have to wake up at 5.30am, and I've just finished packing now. Sighz~ This is what I get for procrastinating. As usual. Haha....:P

I'm not happy about missing American Idol these Wednesday and Thursday though. It's the final 3 now, and it's definitely going to be interesting. Shit man, Katherine better be in the final 2, she deserves it. Taylor should be going out next. I don't mind if Elliot wins, but Katherine needs to go to the final round. I'm not going to be happy if I find out she's gone when I get back.

Yes, I am an American Idol fanatic. What? D'you have a problem with that? I listen to singers ok. So some are really bad, and sometimes reality shows really suck and exploit people too much. But I'm not there for the producers of AI, I'm there for the really good singers who deserve recognition. So sue me. I'll keep watching as long as the good singers keep singing. Too bad I can't vote.

And I'll also be missing the opening of the Da Vinci Code and Over the Hedge! Sigh~ and everyone will have watched it when I come back. Oh well, not that I mind going alone to watch it...but then I'll also have a lot to catch up on at work... Double sighz~

No! I must not be negative. I shouldn't think about all these things. I will go to China, and I will have fun, and whatever will be, will be.

Good nite, sweet dreams, bon voyage... Damn, I hope I don't come back fat...

Nites!

I'm going to China tomorrow! Wheee....

Hmm...actually, I'm not very enthusiastic about it. I mean, ya, I'm going. It's a new change, new experience, whatever. But it's not like I'm jumping around for joy or anything. I think I'm distracted by music right now, I'm not blogging right...

*turns off music*

Ahh....that's better. *ahem*

Anyway! I'm going off to China tomorrow, which is a really good thing coz I need a change of scene. Been hanging around listlessly for months now, and sleeping late and waking up late, and not being productive at all. It's time to wake up and get moving and stop feeling sorry for myself, and start being discipline. I did so well for a while, and then I had setbacks. I hate setbacks. They make things doubly hard when you try to get back into the game. But that's ok. Nothing's gonna stop me now. :D

It's actually a really long story, which I don't really have the time for. I'm just procrastinating. I need to pack for my trip and take a shower. I'll tell in details when I get back, but like I said, I have so much to catch up on. We'll see how well I manage to make time, alright? *grin*

I embrace challenges!

I'm off! (Unless I have time to blog again before I leave for China.)

Sorry guys, for the long hiatus...:P Life was too busy and too complicated for me to bother writing much. But I'm back, and man, do I have a lot to make up for, especially since I know a lot of you have been waiting for the Penang Road Trip episodes. Well, that's so last season, but if you're still interested, I'll see if I'm in the mood. Heh! At this rate, I'll be blogging my fingers raw.

Well, like I said...on the plus side, I have a lot of stories to share. On the minus side, I haven't been taking many pix, so you won't be able to see my pretty face. ;) I'll work extra hard this time though. I, Betty, solemnly promise that I will blog diligently as often as I can, when I have nothing else better to do.

LOL! I am so easily amused!